broken glass.

Truly a blessing until you weren’t,

Its like you fed off my pain and you were always starving for it.

You grew while I broke,

Empowered while I shattered,

Glad to say, you no longer matter.

Cali. R

Replay

I do this every time. I stay until I have nothing left to give even when they didn’t deserve it from the start.

I hurt more than I need too and than I just question why it always happens, but truth is I already know why

I trust more than I should, I forgive more than I can forget, and for what? For it to happen all over again?

When will I stop letting the same old story repeat, maybe I’m just stuck in a constant replay.

Cali.R

Internally broken.

Will it always feel like this?

I can be happy all day,

But one step back and I’m crying on my bathroom floor,

Can’t you hear me? Can’t you tell?

I’m screaming inside hoping someone will notice, it’s deafening.

I can’t take it anymore, why won’t you notice?

I’m pleading and bawling, and still no one knows,

How I wish things were easier, but it’s never how it goes.

I’m internally broken, or however that goes.

Cali.R

Wasn’t it?

When did you know it was over?

Was it when you stopped missing them so much?

When there presence no longer mattered?

Or was it the hate you had?

Was it the lonely nights?

Or the miserable mornings?

It was the silence wasn’t it? The cold nights? And the empty space left between us.

Isn’t it? Isn’t that when you knew?

Cali.R

Astray

Maybe it was the constant calls, or the way you made sure I was on the right side of the street

Maybe it was the way you held me close whenever I wanted you to go away

Maybe it was the beat of your heart when I laid on your chest

Maybe I let myself fall more than I should’ve

Maybe I shouldn’t have found comfort in your touch

Maybe I should’ve been staying away

Maybe one day it’ll feel right

But today?

I’d rather have it all thrown away

Or

Maybe one day I’ll wish I would’ve stayed.

R.Cali

Back to you.

I really wish you had loved me when it still meant something.

I really wish you had noticed us slipping away before we got to lost to find our way back.

I really wish you would’ve changed like you said you would instead of giving me false hope for so long.

Now our stories over and its to late to go back, its to late for it to be us again,

I wish you had loved me before we hit our down fall.

You were the love I loved the most and I just wish I was too.

Cali.R